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Wednesday, November 7th, 2007
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Well, Hell. Hooley is ever-cuter, and my migration back to Oregon draws closer still. I drink far more than I used to, and I'm depressed often. I've given up ever thinking that I'll enjoy anything. I do what seems to make other people happy; I smile, and nod in public, hell, even in my own home. It betrays my feelings, and still, there is no happiness.
I have no desire to Write, read, Draw or anything anymore. I have no desire to ride again, damned my sore knees. I have times where I recess into a feeling of hopelessness, and I remain there for weeks, then I remember I have a facade to pull off, and slip back into my mask, and wing it for a few more weeks.
The cycle will never end, and it seems to have started that direction a long time ago. Being a pessimist hasn't helped me either.
Hearing "Why don't you just go home." Doesn't make me feel any more loved, it only inches me towards the door that I've been standing at for the past year. Why do I return to these familiar things? It's comforting, and the pain numbs over time.
Not dead yet. Figured it was 62 weeks since my last response, so it was about time to post again.
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Monday, August 28th, 2006
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| Greed: | Very Low
| | | Gluttony: | Low
| | | Wrath: | Low
| | | Sloth: | Very Low
| | | Envy: | Medium
| | | Lust: | Very Low
| | | Pride: | Medium
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Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz
0.o
*Shrug*
Going to bed now.
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You Passed 8th Grade Science
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Congratulations, you got 8/8 correct!
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Hot as crap here.
Been gone almost two months I think. I've held out for this long, and I think I can continue to do so. You do stupid things for those that you love.
Anyhow, Talked to my mum today, she had some stuff to say about Megsies, and that she goes to Ride Nights, switching between my little lady, and her horse. There's a pool here, cleaned it, and the pump's shot. Gonna have to clean the damned thing again, when we replace the pump.
Barrindar, who's become a good friend, has shown interest in the biscuit. He's getting too close, but he's nothing like my Tazy ^^, Haven't told him that yet, Nobody's like my Tazy. On the amusing side, I found that the same lady, Pippee, who I have pictures of scandalous acts with Mr. Tazy, has done wrong by Barri. So not only was I jealous at the time, I'm miffed now. I love my Justin, and I'm quite positive that I will continue to do so, for a very long time, regardless of what happens. Hell if I can remember what the man looks like, but I do know what I feel.
Mr. Bacon and I keep seperate schedules. He's doing the sleep-all-day thing, and I'm doing the sleep-all-night thing. His birthday's coming up. Probably won't get him anything, although I did just use his camera to take an absolutely adorable picture of my cat. He says all he wants me to do is get his ringtones to work on his phone. *miffed*
In other news, I danced with myself this morning, since it's patch day. Dropped myself, and laughed in that drunken way for a good couple minutes. I'd be in playing Final Fantasy Tactics, however, Brian's sleeping on the couch, which makes that room off-limits. So not only do I not have a place to watch TV, I don't have a place to sleep either.
*Doubly miffed*
However, things are looking up. I've found things to do. Ever since I moved down here, I get these little scratchy spots, figure it's some nasty scary bug down here. Lots of them. Got scared out of the bathroom by one of them, the little green bastard. Was the size of a spider. So, I did the only thing I could, ran from the bathroom, wrapped in a towel, screaming so everyone could turn and look at me, in the buff, making a fool of myself. Right. So you think one of these big strong men would do something about it? Hell No.
Anywho, raided with CS for a while, getting some goods. Channie's looking pretty sharp, and cute as ever, might I add. Life's still not improving any. Channie did get the staff of Dominance the other day, and looks quite.. dominant with it. Again, all I can do is wish, but it does nothing for me. I did get a small chance (about 4-5 weeks) of Blackwing Lair, with Chaos Storm. While their raiding was wonderful, and the people are quite friendly, I can't help but still feel alone.
On a side note, Having accidentally lowered my chair with my foot.. I feel quite short right now. Waiting for the servers to go up, and hopefully, it'll happen soon
Bored. Annoyed. Sad. and stuff.
Something amusing, I'm going through all my old music, it's cheering me up a bit. I remember when I'd take trips back and forth- to play DDR, and talk to Mr. Justin. I didn't realize how much music I really listened to. I have also noticed, my CDs all have the same name.. and some numbers. I imagine these numbers were significant at one time. But not anymore.
DDR - Butterfly Remix
Blackhawk - Every once and a while (Actually love this one, atm.)
Sheryl Crow - The first cut is the deepest (This one seemed to be a favotire, having burned it 9 times, to the same CD.)
*Gasp* - I actually have a CD labeled 'Good Charolette - but it's FF Music
I also seem to have broken Winamp.. (Tis struggling.. still.)
The Corrs - Breathless (Accidentally said Breakfast once, while singing the song.)
The Donnas - Take it off (Still a favorite song)
Ricky Skaggs & The Dixie Chicks - walk softly on this heart of mine (Still a favorite)
Cheap Trick - I want you to want me
Chris LeDoux - What you gonna do with a cowboy
Chely Wright - Jezebel
(In shock at this point - Didn't realize I had so much music)
Rurouni Kenshin - Freckles (<3)
Rurouni Kenshin - Junjo na kanjou
(At this time, I expect to come across the CD that my class used for graduation)
Mary Chapin Carpenter - Shut up and kiss me (Woo.. Never saw that one coming)
Maroon 5 - Harder to breathe
Stevie Wonder - If you ever did believe (Wow. I mean.. just.. wow..)
Vanessa Carlton - A thousand Miles (This is Derek's 'A douchebag on a piano' example.)
Seak - Kiss from a rose
Savage garden - I want you (Not quite my thing...)
U2 - Staring at the sun (?)
Linkin Park - In the end (Still don't remember this one)
Josie & The Pussycats - Three Small Words (I actually think I like this one)
(Confused at the amount of music I really have...)
(I think I have some Sam Bush here? I dunno...)
(When something says "Kei's Mix 6" You know it has to be good.)
Rurouni Kenshin - It's gonna Rain! (I LOVE the beat in this)
Yonder Mountain String Band - Rambler's Anthem
Yonder Mountain String Band - Half Moon Rising
(That's about all that was worth mentioning)
(There's also a CD here, titled 'Love Songs' - Can you EVER see Kei being all lovey-dovey? I didn't think so.)
Clint Black - Nothing but the Taillights
Garth Brooks - Standing Outside the Fire
Sara Evans - Suds in the Bucket
Toby Keith OR Sting - I'm so happy I can't stop crying (I have both recordings - same CD)
(I also have one here titled 'Up Beat' I'm beginning to think that these ones are not mine.)
Unknown Artist - I'm gonna love you forever (Still LOVE this one)
Dan Fogelberg - Mountain Pass
(in other news, I ACTUALLY OWN the Coyote Ugly Soundtrack - Scary)
YMSB - Keep on Goin
Blessid Union of Souls - Light in your eyes
Eddie Money - Take me Home Tonight
Eurythmics - Sweet Dreams
Jessica Riddle - Even Angels Fall
Jewel - You were meant for me
Denis Leary - Asshole (I love this one too, reminds me of Highschool)
C.W. McCall - Convoy
Chris LeDoux - Rodeo Song/Fucking Jerk
Clay Walker - Only on days that end in Y
David Ball - Riding with Private Malone
Diamond Rio - That's Just That
Doug Stone - Why Didn't I think of That
Faith Hill (Lots here)
Kenny Chesney - Back where I come From (I love this one.)
Lonestar - Come Crying to me
Journey - Died in your arms tonight
Grateful Dead - The Wheel
Grateful Dead - I know you rider
Grateful Dead - Brokedown Palace
(I have a large collection of Grateful Dead Music)
Joan Jett - Bad Reputation
and Shaunii asked me to upload my stuffs to my noobspace account.
Kei's Noobspace Account
And because I can, I'll hotlink my Sammich and snuggly picture, again, because I can
Sammich
Snuggle
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Saturday, February 4th, 2006
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| Your Love Life Secrets Are | 
Looking back on your life, you will only have one true love.
You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't?
You expect a lot from your lover - you want the full package. You tend to be very picky.
In fights, you speak your mind and don't hold back. You know you're right, and you can get quite angry about it.
Getting over a break-up doesn't take long. Easy come, easy go. |
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| Your Birth Month is October | 
You are a natural leader who is able to stand up when no one else can.
Strong and powerful, you tend to overshadow those around you.
Your soul reflects: Gratitude, comfort, and true love
Your gemstone: Tourmaline
Your flower: Cosmos
Your colors: White and yellow |
One word: Pft.
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| Your IQ Is 100 | 
Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average
Your Verbal Intelligence is Genius
Your Mathematical Intelligence is Average
Your General Knowledge is Above Average |
Kei is stupid..
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| You Are 44% Addicted to Love | 
Might as well face it, you're addicted to love.
You've been a fool for love many times - but are you the wiser for it?
Your needs should come first, both in and out of relationships.
Because you're the only one who can look out for yourself! |
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| Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover | 
You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you!
Not because you posess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter.
You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy... and make it you.
You inspire each person to be an idealist and passionate, and you make each moment memorable
Even a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's life
By giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover.
Your abilities to make dreams come true is so strong, that you are often the love of many people's lives.
Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours.
No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover. |
So f'ing true.
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Wednesday, January 11th, 2006
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Quizzes that da-ne did. Because I'm awesome.
(No comments please.)
(I think I did that today.)
(Raise your hand if that is just SO me.)
(I need to.. there's not enough. Too many asses can't seem to find the gas pedal anymore.)
 I took the "The Animal Spirit" quiz on gURL.com |
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My animal spirit is...
The Dolphin
According to shamanistic wisdom, the dolphin is a great and generous communicator. Dolphin people tend to be very friendly and intelligent. They don't hold grudges and seem to spring out of bad moods much more quickly than other people do. Read more...
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Intense, thoughtful, and unconventional.
You're always philosophizing and inspiring others with your insights. |
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Which kind of hoilday should you take?
Made by Erin @ Bored Now
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Which Dessert Would You Be?
Made by Erin @ Bored Now
(cold as crap.. figures.)
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First off: It's pronounced "T*a*zy", for one, Dan pointed out, it should be pronounced like "Lazy" I guess some people like to break the english language. Moral of this story: I Win. (as usual)
Second off, I kicked your ass. You know who you are, and you know that you lost. None of that "Letting me win" bullshit that other people give me. I won, fair and square.
Sorry.
Anyhow, week's going alright, no email, shardia's gone for now. Looking into new webspace, at a lower cost, most likely through A Small Orange, or whatever company that Bacon uses.
As of late, nothing new, I hear there's some shit going down at Eddyville recently, not that I plan to get into that. Glad I missed most of it too. Glad to be back in the world with a damn cable connection. Fuck that 56k bullshit.
Pft.
Oh, and I win.
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Thursday, December 1st, 2005
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I'm taking a break from Warcraft for a little bit, so I figured, why the hell not do all the little quizzy things that da-ne does?
This is what follows.
.. Okay, wow.
Next up.
Your Japanese name should be 'Hotaru'
which means "firefly".
You're like
a firefly, full of energy and always moving.
You can't sit at home for a long time, you just
have to DO something! You're very active and
passionate.
Which Japanese name fits you best? [females, 9 results + absolutely stunning ANIME pictures!]
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I won't argue..
Da-ne doesn't do them as often as she used to, and I think I'm up to where she is. So here's the ante.
And.. I'm stopping now, because Edward (I miss him too.) from Full Sail said that too. I miss that D&D group, regardless of the little time I spent with them.
I do not have a sexy nose.
(Sean said it was to keep me from getting nervous, linking my attractiveness to a non-sexual body part, kinda like, not the eyes.)
I miss my Love. *sniffu*
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"I think I missed something"
They changed the guild message to that during a downtime in last sunday's Zul'Gurub raid.
In other news, I again lost the Zulian Defender, only to a friend, so I could care less. Baltizar's a great.. er person. (guy?) Anywho, have another run on sunday, and I hope my dice are more giving than a 12. I managed to weasel an Arcane Crystal out of it.
Go me.
Have a job.
Go me!
Figure I need to catch up with Brock again. I miss him a bunch.
I also need to pay my Adelphia bill. (*snicker*)
And now.. for the dishes.
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Wednesday, November 16th, 2005
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I am currently 20 stacks of Runecloth away from my goal, to get Exhaulted with the Undercity.
20 stacks.
I have 66 gold.
I am on my way to Orgrimmar, this moment, to purchase what I need. From there, I shall pawn my raptor off on some un-needing shopkeeper, and get myself a level 40 horse mount.
I am quite impressed, that I made it this far.
So far:
Friendly - 6000 (64 Stacks of Runecloth)
Honored - 12000 (225 Stacks of Runecloth)
Revered- 21000 (450 stacks of Runecloth)
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Totals - 739 Stacks of Runecloth.
Yeah, I made it that far. It's a good thing that Gold is so much easier to come by, than Runecloth.
So if you're on Feathermoon today, send a tell to Chantis if you want to see.
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Monday, November 14th, 2005
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Well, I took a screenshot, and I was going to post a picture, but that took too long, and I don't have Photoshop installed on this lappy yet.. Just warcraft...
Anyways
Rurouni Amp
I have no idea who made it, and I don't know why it's no longer on Winamp, if you know, or you created it, or don't want it here, send me an email. I'll gladly give you credit / remove it / or whatever.
Kei out, really this time.
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I'm home.
I do stuff. Getting cable at the end of this week, Yay for Warcraft! Just in time for the Core! I'm all excited about it, mayhaps going in and getting some purple pretties.
I'm about 56 stacks of Runecloth away from getting my Undead Epic Mount, and I've decided to sell my Raptor and buy myself one of those crappy lvl 40 mounts first, just to be cute and show off. I'll say the first four hundred and some stacks took less time, mainly because there were bunch of people helping me (thanks to the Brotherhood of the Fist, my Augury, Ringus, Scunion, Shamara, Najari, Koranik, Gorthrak and Krypte.
I've been farming a lot on my own recently, and that's oodles of fun, not. Loosing my good Warcraft friend Telmov/Tazy/Calduin, so my poor Channie won't have any friends.
I find myself getting a lot of tells from Barthow, and I love going to instances with them, that's also a bunch of fun.
I imagine I'll be following up on my leads once I get to Corvallis. There's a good chance that I'll pick up a nice contract for some pretty 3D work, there's a company here looking for a modeler, and that should be fun.
I'd almost prefer doing some Illustrator work, as I'm gonna redesign my site, finally, so it'll be screen reader compliant. I've also decided that I'll try to make it as PSP-friendly as possible, thanks to Mike and Matt from Full Sail (who were the best teachers there) I've gotten respect for designing for the future, and with those now, it'll be Cell Phones and the other stuff next.
Enough yapping, I'm off to do my own things now, Arena yeahs.
Oh, and thanks to Shaun, I worship him, He hath located my beloved Kenshin Winamp skin.
I love my Sean more though.
Anyways, Kei out.
(Now I'm doing a google search for the name of the song I'm listening to, because I didn't fill the damn field in when I ripped it, so fuck me.)
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Sean and I went to see Dream Theater last night at the Hard Rock Cafe in Citywalk.
It was awesome.
Not to say much for most of the other bands that were there, most of them sucked. The roadies for Dry Kill Logic are the hardest working people. I mean, there was one guy on "Pick up the shit the band knocks down" duty, and the Guitarist wrapped the guitar cord around the singer's throat and pulled him down off of his monitor, that was awesome too. There were some other crappy bands too, Boba Flex wasn't too bad, they started the night off, Synphony X, the main reason Sean went to Gigantour, were aewsome, but they got screwed over, because the cord fell out of the singer's mic. And whoever was FOH for the first part of it, sucked. Didn't even stay for Megadeath, because it didn't interest me in the least.
In other news, Warcraft is still awesome. I have my 60 troll shammy, and a 10 troll priest, a human pally and a night elf Druid.
I also have a gnome Priest on a PvP server..
On the flipside, I have a soft spot for Fullmetal Alchemist. It's awesome.
Sean had a bunch of his friends in my little one bedroom apartment.
I graduate at the end of next month. Go me.
Can't wait to move to Alabama and see what happens. I get to take my Mamow with me, and there's a small part of me that really wants to go back to Oregon, but there's no one there for me, I have to say that Sean is the politest man I've ever been with, and he keeps me very happy. He's a musician, so it's a little different sometimes, but I'm really looking forward to moving in with him, and I hope this relationship lasts forever.
I know that sounds a little hopelessly romantic.. especially coming from me. but I love my Sean.
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| You are 32% geek |  </td><td valign="top">You are a geek liaison, which means you go both ways. You can hang out with normal people or you can hang out with geeks which means you often have geeks as friends and/or have a job where you have to mediate between geeks and normal people. This is an important role and one of which you should be proud. In fact, you can make a good deal of money as a translator.
Normal: Tell our geek we need him to work this weekend.
You [to Geek]: We need more than that, Scotty. You'll have to stay until you can squeeze more outta them engines!
Geek [to You]: I'm givin' her all she's got, Captain, but we need more dilithium crystals!
You [to Normal]: He wants to know if he gets overtime.
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Take the Polygeek Quiz at Thudfactor.com
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cold.
artistic.
energetic.
cynical.
discontent.
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